needy

i wanna cut your hair with a butter knife i wanna cut your hair with my teeth i wanna spend grueling hours in front of a mirror with you and watch you walk out on me with all your hair blanketing the bedroom floor i wanna tie a little piece of it up with barbed wire and my bare hands leave a tail of it bloodied and tangled on your doormat in February in February during a blizzard in my underwear i wanna scream your name out loud enough that all the neighbors lights turn on i wanna lay down in the frozen traffic while you plead with me from the second story window to come inside i wanna throw a space heater through your living room wall and wake your roommate up off the couch i wanna break every dish in the house i wanna crawl and tear and kick at your door and give into a pool of tears in the hallway i wanna find a key under the floorboard i wanna crawl into the cold little space of bed still left next to you i wanna not feel my knees pull into my chest, with the desire to shrink myself up for you i want you to wake up and whisper with you lips grazing my ear and tell me how you wanna scream just as loudly as i do.